Space L Clottey

2022-04-29

really good things that can happen if sometimes moderating for effects

much easier to make new friends if not monitory for effects. can actually bond and make friends as people. Also stuff about

stuff about self honesty that’s people

discomfort about being polite is to do with lying

thinks a lot of people as teeneagers are more concious about polite as a game. But it becomes more locked in and automatic and they loose ability to see directors’ commentary in 20s

makes her think bluntness is better. “as, really important for bluntness”. really important to notice they want it back

if your friend shows you a drawing, you can differentiate. if you’re very specific, you can hear what the’re saing. some sort of spectrum. “Well, it’s hard for me to see what this part is supposed to be a drawing of”. think it’s hard for pencil line to see is tricky or wahtever.

there’s something like causing people not to hear a more general thing that’s true

some people you really wanna avoid, you wanna ghost them. You wanna become very unobtrusive

some people you wanna tell them to fuck off

say your teacher wants something that really croseses some boundary of you. They say you can’t. If you have a wave of anger come over your face, pain/shame/anger. They say “no you need to” they’ll back off

partly that it pulls at their humanity. Just pain would pull at their humanity. Something that pulls at shame and pain and anger. here are my boundaries, if you cross here i might bite.

“animals are very low status in vets office”

vet pokes them somewhere, they retreat and growl. vet gets a backoff fromhere signal

your usual reaction is to back off and head the dogs boundaries. you don’t feel threatened by the dog

you dog are out of place

the dog or the person can play high or low status separately from displaying or not displaying anger. not always mixed with display of dominance or high status. trying to display dominance of someone with more satatus than you is bad idea. if something is actually crossing boundary of yours, there are signals that something is crossing boundaries of yours. usually they’ll back of.

Impro by Keith Jhonson, about status Nitzche Ayn Rand general tribal politics.

sure they are rowe thinks row is a little bit wrong. elephant in the brain, describing what was up without weirdly half true insidious

Venkatesh Rao

Moral Mazes - poorly written how cooporations work

the meme machine

never split the difference you can give people stuff without it costing you a helicopter

A little book on the human shadow, by Robert Bly. (Different genre, made more out of fairy tales)

how to read more books?

Nonviolent Communication, by Marshal Rosenberg - changed her life - apparently difficult. It made much more sense on the other topics - deep and coherent worldview

“before they found ea they knew how to hang out with their friends. after they joined ea, they lost the ability to hang out. They could go back, and could think about how they weren’t doing somethign importatn”

eas want something from ou. really cool thing in broader world where people enjoy chilling together

those are the eas that go to the bonfire what am i doing now that’s

lots of people who come to ea start thinking like that. Becaus ehtey tell me things about how they used to be able to chill and just enjoy. Now they somehow dot know how to chill that.

wants ea grants to go to people who do not particularly go to ea necessarily but who are trying to understand the world

especially young people, and i am quite young relative to other people

if there are people trying to understand the world and trying to make the world better

young people usually don’t have nearly as much money to spend learning and stuff and exploring stuff. Getting money to me is a chaper way to aid smart interesting to people to learn more about the world. eg. travellign to tlak to people, getting tutoring, having a sense of security. Becuase if i quit my job ill still have some money

thinks it’s cheap way to increase freedom and exploration to go into the world

really happy taht ea with ftx is spending more way that isn’t about supporting ea idealogy. Not happy about spending money to get people to say their eas

better about spending money to free up people interseting in speeding up the world to ttalk about it

especially when undercapitalised

i already have

sometimes people end up feeling constrained whenever you give them money “okay now i have to think about whatever you want” when this happens. for the same reason why she’s weary of politeness, but not weary when concious game. not a type lying that becomes a lie to yourself.

if you were to try to pretend you were someone’s friend to get ahead in the world. seems potentially corrosive

try to pretend you like somebody even though you don’t. Or pretend teachers are right. or that it doesn’t really make sense to you.

if somebody wants to pay me for some work that’s fine. hey anna, can you pretend to be a certain type of person and i’ll give you money and to your closests friends, not cool. will get everyone confused

hey look, here’s my deal, if you wanna give me my deal, do whatever

== differnent thing ==

whenever i feel about caring the world, i feel constrained, as opposed to actually

Recognize the connections of things and laws of conduct of men, so that you may know what you are doing. Let your acts be directed toward a worthy goal, but do not ask if they will reach it; they are to be models and examples, not means to an end. Speak to all men as you do to yourself, with no concern for the effect you make, so that you do not shut them out from your world; lest in isolation the meaning of life slips out of sight and you lose the belief in the perfection of creation. Do not destroy what you cannot create. Touch no dish, except that you are hungry. Do not covet what you cannot have. Do not lie without need. Honor children. Listen reverently to their words and speak to them with infinite love. Do your work for six years; but in the seventh, go into solitude or among strangers, so that the memory of your friends does not hinder you from being what you have become. Lead your life with a gentle hand and be ready to leave whenever you are called.

interested to hear if some of it feels true or false as i gather more detail

when insights did or didn’t happen

2022-04-29